|Dear Sami, |
I've been cross dressing now for a couple of years. My first year I was a closet Crossdresser. Than it was just about after that first year my mother caught me and of all things to be wearing, her wedding dress. Well, to my surprise she loved what she seen. I still remember that day clearly. Anyways, since than my mother has been such a great help towards me finding my true self, it's unbelievable. She taught me all about my make-up, my hair, she does wonders. She enjoys my hair. She'll spend hours on my hair. She loves putting curls in my hair. She gives me a complete work over on my finger and toe nails. Sami, she treats me like her daughter. I love it. For my 21st birthday, she bought me my first ever breast forms. I worship the ground my mother stands on. I've got to be the luckiest child alive. Well, that following night, she took me out to one of her night clubs, she goes to with her girlfriends. I have to tell you. I had one of the most beautiful nights of my life. Just being held by these men as we danced. I'd swear, I died and went to heaven.
Well, what I'm trying to say is that, being out that night. I noticed other girls my age maybe a little older. I noticed how perfect their bums and hips looked. The next day after my mother went to work. I got on the computer and started looking up female hormones. They have pills out there that can make me look more feminine and if I took them long enough, I'd get that figure I'm dying for. Well, I brought it up to my mother after dinner as we were clearing the table and to my surprise, she said no. She claims she'll be the one to decide on that and this is not the time. She says that I should stop and smell the roses. Enjoy what I got now, that I have a whole life ahead of me. Sami, I can't believe she said that. She knows that I want to be her daughter. She shows me herself everyday, that she wants me as her daughter. I still can't believe she said that. Would you believe she came in my bedroom some time after wards. Handing me a print out of what she just ordered from this company. It's a pair of panties with built in pads for the bum and hips. I didn't tell her, but I can't wear that. Sami, I came across your web-site and you know what I'm going through. Would you please give me some advise. Something that I can convince my mother that I need to order those pills. My god they say in less than three months I'll be able to notice a change, in six months I'll have that feminine figure that I'm dying for and you know what? She'll love it. Please help me out. You are like my last resort.
You are a very lucky person and you are being faced with some very big decisions. These decisions will change the course of your life. You need to take your time in making these decisions and use your head and your heart to make them. You need to understand these decisions are not to be taken lightly.
You and your mother are having fun and that is wonderful. She has indicated that she is not comfortable with you taking female hormones. Please take the time to resolve this with your mother. Once you develop a feminine shape it is there forever. With padding, breast forms and makeup you can take it off at the end of the day. You cannot take breasts grown with hormones off at the end of the day. They would be with you for the rest of your life. There would also be other changes.
Enjoy your time dressing up with your mother and if you really feel the need to go further, seek the help of a caring professional. There are a number of good gender programs at many of the major universities. There are also clinics that are more interested in convincing you that you need their help, when in fact they have their self-interest in mind more than yours.
This is a very important decision. Make it wisely. Take your time in making this decision. The longer a decision will affect your life, the longer you need to take when making the decision.
Please let me know if there is anything I can do to help. You have a bright and wonderful future ahead of you. Stay sweet, be truthful with yourself and with others, but most of all make the decisions that are right for you. Just take the time to make the decisions work for yourself and the ones you love.